Sunday, May 18, 2008

3. Why the blog

So, if anyone is reading this, you may be wondering why I really started a blog if I don't intend to tell people I have a blog. (See first post.) Well, I did tell one person, but as he's an online friend that doesn't really count.
Well, most likely you don't care, but since it's my blog and there is probably nobody reading it, I can write about what I want. (You may be thankful I have to leave for work in 20 minutes.)
I'm not really a blogger mostly because I can't write and think while online and on the computer. (I am copying something already written on paper, it's sad.) However, sometimes I'd like to get my thoughts out where people could read them. I just don't want the people I know to read them. You know what I mean? I guess I want the me- the real me and the me I want me to be to show- instead of the fake, apathetic me.
Anyhow, reading a blog (by someone I don't know, linking from another blog of someone I don't know, linking from someone's sorta blog that I sorta know), well, she has some inspiring blogs and it made me feel like I should be writing one too. (of course, this is silly since I'm unlikely to blog anything inspiring or all that interesting) Or maybe it's the fact that I owe God (don't ask, I know there's no such thing as bargaining with God) and this could help fulfill it leans on my mind, but mostly I think I just want a place to alternate between showing off and being "real" with the chance of changing lives- without the people I know knowing I'm "not really me".
It's ridiculous. What would I blog about? The everyday stuff? The life altering stuff that hasn't altered my life?
That is, I have a tendency to be apathetic in most of my life, but I'm actually afraid to stop being so because then other people might realize how really apathetic I am. Ouch?
Therefore, I guess the point of the blog is to make me express my opinions and thoughts, to be bolder in my beliefs and my goal is to carry this over in my actions and reactions.
And if anyone read that and cares, yay. :)
And if anyone doesn't, that shouldn't effect the results (if there are any.)
Well, off to work go I. [sigh] Cya!

1 comment:

  1. So, I've finally started admitting I have a blog... Does that mean I need to post more?